1. |
anything at all
02:15
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i need to write more
i need to sing before i can't
i need to find words
and not be such a hypocrite
i need to let myself find meaning
i need to let myself go numb
i need to remember the feeling
i need to walk before i run
cause it's hard to reset your motives
by just going through the motions
i need to be more emotive
i need to listen to my emotions
i need to ask more
for all the things that i don't know
maybe relax more
and stop making shit up as i go
cause when you find a new direction
it feels like theres no other option
i need to prove to myself i need this
i need a reason to keep breathing
cause it's hard to reset your motives
by just going through the motions
i need to be more emotive
i need to listen to my emotions
i need a clear way that i'm going
i need anything
anything
i need to let myself find meaning
i need to let myself go numb
i need to go back where i started
and remember where i came from
cause it's hard to reset your motives
by just going through the motions
i need to be more emotive
i need to listen to my emotions
i need a clear way that i'm going
i need anything
anything
anything at all
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2. |
the fool
02:49
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slow down that's what they say
that's what will make all your problems go away
don't think about anything when you're overwhelmed
just turn off your feelings if they get too loud
slow down you're the fool just like i am aren't you oh no
don't you know it's rude to make an ass of me but mostly you
slow down shut up stop thinking now you've got it
you're the fool get used to it
why don't you take your seat already
slow down there it is again
you'll hear it a lot if you want any help
from your family your friends
from loved ones and sick ones and people you hate
from people like us that don't buy in
but it's all that we're conditioned to say
slow down it'll make all of your problems go away
slow down you're the fool just like i am i am aren't you aren't you
don't you know it's rude to make an ass of me but mostly mostly mostly
you slow down shut up stop thinking now you've got it
you're the fool get used to it
why don't you take your seat already
slow down is it sinking in
slow down the message that they're really sending
slow down are you sick of it already
slow down until you don't recognize yourself anymore
slow down you're the fool just like i am i am aren't you aren't you
don't you know it's rude to make an ass of me but mostly mostly mostly
you slow down shut up stop thinking now you've got it
you're the fool
get used to it
and grab your fucking seat already
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3. |
dirty socks
03:42
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it's alright it's alright
it's alright we'll be fine
we'll take it one day at a time
it's alright it's alright
it's alright
when i was growing up i always dreamed
of living life like they do up on television screens
but as a kid i didn't know my heart was bleeding
and now i'm all grown up and i can't stand the T.V.
selling lies to youth that don't know better yet
cause if they knew the truth it would make the money sad
i'm sick of all these games now that i've had the chance
to kick my shoes off and see what all i missed
and it's alright it's alright
it's alright i'll be fine
now that i've seen the light
it's alright it's alright
it's alright
when i was growing up i never knew
how desperate we could get how much that we could lose
now i'm just scraping by don't know what i can do
except forfeit to the machine that put me in these shoes
to walk around for miles in these broken down streets
while they legislated new cinder blocks to strap on to our feet
well maybe it's about time to plant some new seeds
and shoot the shoe maker for fucking with our needs
but it's alright it's alright
it's alright stay the line
i got yours if you got mine
it's alright it's alright
it's alright
when i was growing up i always thought
it was possible to do this without the big boss
and years have only taught me i was write all along
except they have their hands in everything cause they're scared of us
gaining control of our lives again
not like we really ever did
they kept us guessing all the way
and kicked us if we misbehaved
well maybe it's about time to plant some new seeds
and shoot the shoe maker we'll have everything we need
so it's alright it's alright
it's alright you'll be fine
cause no one gets left behind
it's alright it's alright
it's alright
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4. |
clusterfuck
02:04
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now i'm breaking promises i said i'd never ever ever
smoke another cigarette
and it's cliche but now my lungs are filled up
with regret and some toxins that just might
take my life a little faster but right now it feels so right
on my hands on my lips on my heavy heart this is just the start
cause i sound like you trying to sound like someone else
and i hate to be a clusterfuck but i just need some help
if i'm ever ever ever gonna feel okay again
it's tattooed on my wrist a reminder i'm not over this
two years down the road and i fear that i'm just getting worse
but right now it feels so wrong
in my head it feels so right
every night could be this bad
this is just my life this is how i survive
spinning round in circles feeling barely alive
and my mental illness kills me just like every body else
so i'll panic til i'm manic til i'm out of this hell
and i promise i won't make another promise i can't keep
cause my thoughts got lost all over and i don't think i can handle
any more i'm bursting at the seams i need to fall asleep
i'm sorry i'm not trying harder but i'm still okay
and that's all i can't promise
i can't promise any more
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5. |
perfect
02:27
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i fell in love with everything i could see
there we were
you drove me crazy cause it felt perfect
you were my world
and even though i've changed
i'm stuck in the same place
in a world where nothing
makes any damn sense
where left is up and
down below is
right over your head
and we're spinning faster
than anyone before us you've
gotta find what's right for you
i see the world for what it could be now
what it is
you call me crazy cause i trust blindly and
you're more skeptic
well maybe you're still right
things just get worse all the time
in a world where nothing
makes any damn sense
where left is up and
down below is
right over your head
and we're spinning faster
than anyone before us you've
gotta find what's right for you
i fell in love with what we could be not
what we were
i fell in love with the idea that we
could change the world
but what a pipe dream
what a convoluted mess
it was absolutely perfect
in my head
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6. |
what you wanted
03:05
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i think i get it
at least i thought so for a second
i'm only guessing
cause what else am i supposed to do
to turn you on to turn you down
show off my good side and keep you around
make you forget who i was before i left
make up for a whole damn lifetime in a weekend
if this is what you wanted
now you've got it here you go
take a picture it'll last
a little longer than the show
i hope it makes you think of times
you never thought you'd never know
knowing you can't hear the noises
in the image anymore
i don't regret it
no no even for a second
all in an instant
everything made sense again
except the rules the bells and hoops
all the framework that i had to go through
make it make sense because it doesn't
make up your mind cause i've had enough of it
if this is what you wanted
now you've got it here you go
take a picture it'll last
a little longer than the show
i hope it makes you think of times
you never thought you'd never know
knowing you can't hear the noises
in the image anymore
what's it matter what i want
as long as i'm still waking up
to preform what you wanna see
so i can barely make ends meet
i shoulda known this all along
it's not that easy for anyone
so i should just leave it be and
give you everything you wanted to see so
if this is what you wanted
now you've got it here you go
take a picture it'll last
a little longer than the show
i hope it makes you think of times
you never thought you'd never know
knowing you can't hear the noises
in the image anymore
you can't hear the noises in the image anymore
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