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clusterfuck

from still ok by today i am

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lyrics

now i'm breaking promises i said i'd never ever ever
smoke another cigarette
and it's cliche but now my lungs are filled up
with regret and some toxins that just might
take my life a little faster but right now it feels so right
on my hands on my lips on my heavy heart this is just the start

cause i sound like you trying to sound like someone else
and i hate to be a clusterfuck but i just need some help
if i'm ever ever ever gonna feel okay again
it's tattooed on my wrist a reminder i'm not over this
two years down the road and i fear that i'm just getting worse

but right now it feels so wrong
in my head it feels so right
every night could be this bad
this is just my life this is how i survive
spinning round in circles feeling barely alive
and my mental illness kills me just like every body else
so i'll panic til i'm manic til i'm out of this hell

and i promise i won't make another promise i can't keep
cause my thoughts got lost all over and i don't think i can handle
any more i'm bursting at the seams i need to fall asleep
i'm sorry i'm not trying harder but i'm still okay
and that's all i can't promise
i can't promise any more

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from still ok, released November 4, 2021

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today i am Detroit, Michigan

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